What a fantastic day!!! Amy is doing so well, although I am sure inside she is struggling, she is really making an effort. She went back to school and has spoke to her teachers about finding out what she needs to complete to catch up. She is so smart, I know she can do this.
I had my Puppy Milo to the vet today and he has a scratched cornea...:( poor little man, but it will heal.
Greys and Private Practice started up again tonight, I love these shows too!!
5 days have come and gone and Roger is still smoke free...How is he doing it?? WOW is all I can say. I quit years ago, it was tough and I used the patch. I was smoke free for 5 years. I regret ever starting again.
Todays photo is of a butterfly that Amy drew on her wrist. There is a story behind it, which I will share as well. I am thinking that a new tattoo is in my near future!!

The Butterfly Project:
The Rules are:
1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand.
2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better.
3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it off.
... 4. If you cut before the butterfly is gone, you’ve killed it. If you dont cut, it lives.
5. If you have more than one butterfly, cutting kills all of them.
6. Another person may draw them on you. These butterflies are extra special. Take good care of them.

7. Even if you don’t cut, feel free to draw a butterfly anyways, to show your support. If you do this, name it after someone you know that cuts or is suffering right now, and tell them. It could help.

My Girl Amy is home tonight and sleeping in her own bed. :) we have had a really good evening. I pray it lasts.
I am pleased to announce that my Tree is down!!!!! I wish I had more to say, but I am tired and my Fav show is on...Dog the Bounty Hunter...lol So I wanna go watch it. Nite nite!
Oh almost forgot my pic of the day. Well because my girl is home, and is vowing to start a new chapter, this pic is of her, taken tonight. Love you Little lady!

So Kaycie went back to school today. I didn't mind having her home for the holidays, I know some people can't wait for their kids to go back, but not me...lol I am not a morning person. She had a great first day back.
Today was our meeting with Amy's therapist, not really sure what to think of that. Can't say it went as I had hoped. Looks like there is no where for Amy to go( we had hoped she would be admitted somewhere where she could get some help) other than to be readmitted back to hospital, but they don't do anything for her there, other than keep her safe. I guess I should explain why she needs help.....she suffers from Depression, Social anxiety, and we were told after her last Psychiatric assessment, that she may suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder. We are still waiting on a official diagnoses. But she certainly exhibits all the symptoms. it's frustrating to say the least trying to deal with her, and at this point she refuses to help herself. She has shown violent behaviour, has been a compulsive lier, won't take responsibility for her actions, making bad decisions and failing school. We argue a lot and it hurts us both. :( For tonight she is still with my mom, maybe she will come home tomorrow. But under conditions. So enough of that for now, it depresses me to talk about it.

Guess what?? My tree is still up!! hahaha Thinking I may just leave it up till next Christmas..lol
Seriously though, I did get my other decorations put away, so that is a start.

As for Roger, well 30 more mins and he will be smoke free for 72 hours! He is amazing and I am so proud of him.:) **He makes me smile**

Anyway time to sign out and finish watching the hockey game, Canada vs Russia 0-2 4mins left in the 1st...:( Go Canada GOOOOOOOOOOOO.

And here is my photo for today, it's of my dogs again, teeheehee and my beautiful girl Kaycie at bedtime.

I think I am a few minutes late for Monday, but only a few, lol. I had planned to put away my Christmas Tree and decorations today, but guess what? I didn't :( At least I didn't turn on the lights...lol Most of my day was spent preparing for what will be a very stressful day for me tomorrow. Once my Youngest daughter is off to school, I have to call my oldest daughters Therapist. She has been suffering from some mental disorders for a while now and the Holidays were not an easy time for us as a family. She has been living away from mom for 1 week, and I am afraid to have her back home. She has been staying with my Mom and Dad, but even they are starting to feel the stress. so Tomorrow is do or die day, she has to be admitted somewhere. I pray it all goes well and that she understands why we have to do this. I will over time explain more about some of the stuff we are dealing with. For now I want to say Congrats to my boyfriend Roger who is 49 hours smoke free!!!! And cold turkey at that. I am so proud~
And now for my photo of the day...my Sister Erin and my 3 dogs, Bay'lee, Milo and Oscar!

January 1st 2012

I have decided to start a blog, dunno why..lol just because.
My name is Robin I am 44 and I live in Canada, I am divorced, but seeing someone special.
I have 2 Living children, Amy is 16 and Kaycie is 8, My twin boys Kyle and Cody passed away in August of 2002 after being born at 25 weeks. That Special Person is my boyfriend Roger, we met in March of 2010. He is my rock and I love him so much!! :) Now lets talk about my zoo, first we have 2 cats, a brother( Kruz) and sister(Kleo) that we got from the Humane Society in Dec 2007. In December of 2008 our Bay'lee was born and came to live with us in Feb 2009. He is a Shitzu. Milo joined our family this past fall and he is about 6 months old right now(and OMG he is bad) He is part Shitzu part lhapso apso. In December 2011, we rescued a 10 year old Shitzu, his mane is Oscar.
Somedays having all these animals under foot is more that I can take, but I just keep praying it will get better.
A friend of mine (Nicole) has decided to do this new thing this year where she takes and posts a new photo everyday for 2012, I think thats neat and I am going to try to do that too. Just Remeber I said ""TRY"". I have one for today already, It's Jenna and Marcus(those are Roger's Children) and Kaycie, who all stayed up to ring in the new year!!